Meh

Yeah, so clearly I haven't touched this for a while. I looked at it, if that makes a difference. And I certainly had noble intentions of updating every Sunday last semester, but clearly those came to naught. At some later time, I'll do a highlight reel of sorts (famous last words).

Right now I'm just kinda bleh. It's late and has been rainy, so I'm sure that helps (though I've always loved rain :/). The last three weeks or so, basically the last month, have just been really hard. Emotionally, mentally, even physically. It's really been taxing on me; I didn't realize how much until my roommate informed me that she thought I'd lost weight (she has me step on her back on a regular basis, so she's got a pretty good idea). I hadn't noticed anything amiss, but upon having access to a scale I found out she was right. Really right. And I was really surprised/startled as that's never happened to me before.

Anyway, things've just been interesting and everything decided to happen at once, making it so much harder to take than if they'd come at me one or two at a time. I needed the week break between semesters dearly to go home and recuperate and be away from and not have to worry about anything for a while. I didn't really do anything, but I was glad to be home with my parents and my cats and I enjoyed being at my home ward on Sunday.

That said, it was also a sort of relief to come back. You know, to get things started, get this new semester going and everything. And to be back with my roommates; I won't deny it, it got rather lonely during the break. I'm blessed to be able to live with my best friends. Especially as of late, they support me and take care of me as best they can. When I got back late Monday night, I came in to discover all of them had waited up to welcome me home and I was so happy to see them all.

We've decided to really try harder this semester to be even better to each other and to really have the Spirit in our apartment. We're attempting to redecorate to make it feel more like a home, and we've been really great so far about having apartment prayer morning and night. I know it's only been three days, but we're off to a great start. And we're trying to have a goal of getting to the temple at least once a week, whether we can all go together or we have to go in two groups on different days or we have to get up early on Saturday. Jessica and I are going tomorrow. I'm really hopeful for this semester.

I've never really been one for personal goals and all that jazz, but I also made a list of things I want to work on. Unsurprisingly, some are more personal so I won't share them, but here's a couple:

Finish at least one of my "projects"
Cook an actual meal at least once a month (sad, but true)
Be happier/friendlier
Blog at least every other week
Get out of the apartment (do things)
Practice piano at least once a month

Now I actually have witnesses for at least some of my goals, so perhaps that'll give me extra motivation. At any rate, I really want to just be/do better. All-around. Just be a better me. Here goes.